Keeping My Life Boat Afloat: A Journey Through Biofield Tuning

If you know me, you know I'm still on the road to recovery. Anxiety continues to trip me up, and unless I carefully curate my environment and regulate what and who I let in, the fear of burnout looms large. It’s like my nervous system still remembers the trauma of burning out as if it happened yesterday. 

To stay ‘present’ and grounded, I’ve become deeply invested in my own wellbeing in a way I never have been before. I’m always learning and moving forward, figuring out what I need to thrive. But despite all this, there’s always a nagging voice inside me that pushes me to get back out there, to ‘get back on the horse.’ I keep trying to restart and find ways to be of service again.

Recently, I had a biofield tuning session, and it brought a powerful visualisation to life. Sarah, my biofield tuner, could see me in my life boat—a beautiful, fully inflated boat with fairy lights draped across, floating peacefully. The sun was shining on me in my boat. I was happy, relaxed, and fully enjoying life in this metaphorical boat.

But when I started talking about the idea of being in service again, things changed. As I spoke about people asking me questions, wanting help, needing advice, or 'plugging back in', my life boat became crowded. People were hanging off the sides, and soon, water started coming in. My once peaceful boat was now a source of anxiety, and I found myself paddling frantically, trying to stay afloat while keeping everyone else above water too. The more I focused on helping others, the more my boat became weighed down.

This image was a profound reflection of how I’ve been feeling about returning to work or stepping back into service. There’s a part of me that’s still healing, and my energy is fragile. While I want to help others, I also need to protect my own peace, my own energy—my “life boat.” I can’t let it be capsized by taking on too much or by putting everyone else’s needs ahead of my own.

Sarah and I started exploring what it could look like to help others without sinking my own boat. It became clear that I needed to find ways to protect my energy while still sharing what I know. And I realised that so much of the pressure I feel is tied to the traditional sense of being “of service.” The idea of helping others by jumping into their boats and steering for them doesn’t align with who I am anymore.

Instead, what if I stood in my own boat, tending to it, keeping it afloat, while offering advice and support from a distance? The analogy gave me permission to be of service on my own terms, without sacrificing my own wellbeing. I can still share what works for me - and what I observe of others and how I think they can help themselves - without letting others’ needs overwhelm me.

I’m learning that it’s okay to stay in my own boat. It’s okay to maintain boundaries around my energy and my peace. And it’s okay to offer help from where I stand, rather than diving in and sinking under the weight of it all.

This biofield tuning session was a powerful reminder that my journey back to service doesn’t have to look like what it did before. I can protect my energy, hold space for my own healing, and still show up for others in ways that feel good to me.

At the end of the day, the fundamentals of keeping a life boat afloat are pretty much the same for everyone. We all need air, we all need to keep the water out, and we all need to stay balanced. My job, right now, is to keep my own boat afloat and to remember that I can only serve from a place of balance and strength.

So if you’ve ever felt like your boat is getting heavy, or you’re paddling furiously to stay afloat, maybe it’s time to pause and ask yourself: What’s weighing down my life boat? And more importantly, How can I keep my own boat afloat?

Thanks for reading.
Love, Hayley.
xoxo